posted on Friday, July 30, 2010
i don't know why it still is.
but i can't help it.
i've tried and tried to say what's on my mind.
but it always gets too close -
and i recoil.
i flinch,
i shrink into myself.
some psycho analysis might suggest it stems from a deep need to protect myself.
but i'm tired of that, that fear. because it seems that the only way i know how to protect myself is to distance and cut off people from my life. it's it's just what i've been doing for the past year and a half.
and soon it will be 2 years.
and i will be
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