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Where Did You Come From LadyElizabeth Tan♥ |
posted on Thursday, September 04, 2008gosh i haven't posted in such a long timeand i'm practically stuck at home now. not even allowed to go for council/ this sucks i've got so much to post about! we visited ms mara on teachers' day! yes we[my whole class] went all the way to stupid sji and up into the staffroom! gosh. freakin' cried. she bought us all ice cream! sang for her, took pictures and cried. yeah... screwed all my CAs. damn. i don't know. okay fine, i do know why and i should have tried harder but i can't find that kind of motivation. all i can find is this heaviness and disatisfaction. which i so much easier to run away from. just plain lethargy. all the time. why the bleeding hell is this happening? i thought it stopped? i thought they said i was okay? i took the bloody meds and i don't want them anymore! they don't work, they just make you dependent on them. and it's not going to make this pain go away. i just need to get away. like right now. just go off? i can't leave like that. i've got too many committments. people give me resposibilities, i can't just run off. just this once too late. you've had your time, you have your faith. just keep going, don't stop, don't look back. no. no more tears, don't go in there and waste everyone's bleeding time. oh come on elizabeth! i know it hurts every few hours but you can't do anything. you made the choice not to go see the cardiologist. no point looking back. fine. so i'm gonna keep breathing as long as i can. God will find a way for me. and i can't begin to explain the things i've done. but i'm sorry, Jesus. i shouldn't have done that. and i just want you to know that all the letters, poems and prose in there is written for you. in hope, in knowing that some day, some how, some way or another, i'll find my way back home. i'll get back to where we used to be. prayer was never meant to work like magic. it's an act of love. love, for the people you're praying for. love, that the Lord has given you love, in the Lord, that He will hear you out love, that all of us have been out there searching for but fail to realise it's right here, in our hearts. love, that we all eventually figure out, is all that matters after all i can honestly say, you've been on my mind since i woke up today. tonight i've fallen and i can't get up i need your loving hands to come and pick me up and every night i miss you i can just look up and know the stars are holding you, holding you, holding you, tonight |
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