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Where Did You Come From LadyElizabeth Tan♥ |
posted on Tuesday, October 28, 2008i'm okay with taking care of peoplebut just her because i love her. but i can't do one whole week of unknown people i'm just so sick of this everywhere i turn, someone's in pain, someone's dying someone needs to be taken care of. i'm sorry, Jesus. for being so selfish especially at a time like this but it's too much for me don't tell me what i can or can't handle i just hate this and yes, i blatantly resent the fact that i'm the one stuck with it but i don't hate them just the fact that i seem to be one who's been getting it lately. and i want something else something different. just get away from all this death and dying because i'm tired of it. 2 years. 2 friggin' years! like, oh come on! for the love of God, i deserve a life here but i don't want a life where i have to spend all my time worrying about other people who don't even care. and seem to think it's their God-forsaken right that i be at their beck and call. it's not fair. no, i have to stop saying these things. cause God might take her away. and if He does that, if she leaves, if she goes, if i lose her, i'll lose myself. i just don't think i'll have enough of me left to carry on like that. i don't want to have to look back and cry my heart out. i don't even know where my heart is anymore. i'm sorry, Jesus. this isn't really working out. i supposed if i didn't do all those stupid things and start doubting this would have never happened. but now i'm just a fool. just plain stupid and useless. i need to get back, please. please Jesus, please. i just wanna come home. i don't wanna lose her. posted on Monday, October 27, 2008In life, only one thing is certain...apart from death and taxes...no matter how hard you try, no matter how good your intentions, you are going to make mistakes.You're going to hurt people. You're going to get hurt. And if you ever want to recover... There's really only one thing you can say Forgive and forget. That's what they say It's good advice, but it's not very practical When someone hurts us...we want to hurt them back. When someone wrongs us, we want to be right. Without forgiveness, old scores are never settled...old wounds never heal And the most we can hope for is that one day we'll be lucky enough to forget posted on Sunday, October 26, 2008if you love someoneand they break your heart don't give up on love have faith; restart i'm trying baby, you've just got no idea how hard so i'm giving up on you it's just getting too hard i can't afford to get hurt now cause someone else needs me and you don't even know. i still wonder why i care when the truth of the matter is, yeah, replacing you is really easy. and you're far from irreplaceable ah, this is corny. i know i'm not being fair to you but it's not fair to the others either 2 years, it's hell of a long time to wait but i'm sorry i can't do the same for you it just never happened. posted on Thursday, October 16, 2008okay, it died. i get that.aiya, this is so weird. haha, finally blogging? megaparsec! i just decided to change your name to megatron. it's cuter. heh, erm okay... invest is over! it was fun(: exams are over. gah, and the results came back okay, some only. oh man, so annoying. i hate these kind of days and yesterday was a waste of time. the school gave us boring talks about spa, job attachment and then the celebrate life talk. which i kind of already had in church, except it was spread out over 2 days and we all kind of slept through it this time. our butts were too sore. eh! i'm peeling like some.. some reptile! haha, after amath paper i went to beatrice's house to swim with beatrice and bever. and i got sunburned on my shoulders! ): there's like this flap of skin which...okay thanks to my ichy fingers just came off. urgh. dead skin cells. must find aloe vera and moisturiser... i think it's somewhere in the very messy drawers i am going to fill my life with happy thoughts now and ignore all the terrible things happening. because i don't want to be broken again. so there. i'm not going to face reality, i'd rather go into denial. |
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