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Where Did You Come From LadyElizabeth Tan♥ |
posted on Monday, April 26, 2010i see it now.i see how we're pulling apart, pushing away and i don't like it. i've poured out so much effort to try and keep this together without annoying you, without encroaching into your life, but you don't care. you just leave it there for the wind to carry away. i've focussed so much on not forgetting you that i've blocked off other people from coming into my life. why do i keep doing that? posted on Saturday, April 24, 2010i'm always distracted on weekends.there is no hope of finishing all my homework this weekend. or starting on my beliefs essay. darn. we started on archery in pe! :D and i'm not that bad at it. i just took a bit longer to get it. hahaha. at least i made it to the second last round of the lousy competition thing. hahaha. he said we'd get a free drink. but before pe i went to sp to visit beatrice! it took me 20 minutes to get there. i saw her for 10 mins and then she had to go home. then it took me another 20mins to get back. worth it to see her and get my $50 and get treated to a free drink? yes. hahaha. but mainly for the first 2 reasons. i am no longer broke. and i met 2 of her classmates who convinced her to buy a drink for me. green tea. it's been ages since i last drank that. went to the expensive jap guild house today and ate black seasame ice cream. it's not that bad actually. it just takes a bit to get used to. they have cute chopstick things which hold the tip of the chopstick up. hahaha, i was so tempted to steal it. i realised the library is nice and quiet when everyone is at gp. very condusive for sleeping :D just saw the wedding card for waikin & liz's wedding. yay, i am excited and hope that the food will be really good. hahaha. posted on Friday, April 23, 2010i'm so annoyed at you right now.i really don't want to fight. i don't want to be snarky. i don't want to end up bitching about you. and i know you find my decisions unpleasant but it's not easy for me to make them either. i miss it too. posted on Friday, April 16, 2010i don't think i've ever missed someone this much.the first cut isn't the deepest. it just gets worse from there. come back, come back to me. i don't think i've ever begged so earnestly for something i know i can't have. why'd you have to go. posted on Tuesday, April 13, 2010a playlist consisting of:away from the sun - 3 doors down scars - allison iraheta tell me why - taylor swift let it be - katie stevens' version from AI and lots of kris allen; send me all your angels, before we come undone, i need to know. those are the main ones. i wish i could close my eyes and make it go away posted on Saturday, April 10, 2010life needs to retain some sort of noramlity.or does it? i don't mind things changing. just what changes and the way they change/ that, i mind. but funorama's long over. i seriously failed at scaring people. i was too scared myself. and the light kept dying on me. to all the people who came in and shouted my name when they saw me, oi! you could have at least pretended to be scared! ahaha. and no thanks to those people who took flash photography. i couldn't really spend time with friends! but thanks anyway to beatrice, steph, daffy, jane, baba, haoteng and yw and all the rest who came. even though not all of yall bought tickets from me, (and as a result i had to pay for those remaining ones) it was nice seeing you guys. what else? watched remember the titans again. hahaha. couldn't help screaming at the gay scene. love that movie (not because of the gay thing.) easter virgil! my dad's turn to be a sponsor and godparent to his friend! haha. pass it on, right? so it was st peter and paul. omgosh, we had to be there super early. but we got good seats(: quite close to the ffront. we were actually like, the first row after the reserved pews. the bonfire was kinda wet? yeah, it rained! there was still a slight drizzle when we began. the whole thing was just so long. i don't want to whine, but, i don't remember st iggy's or holy spirit's being that long... maybe it's just me. but the filling of the font in the middle of the readings was... very unglam and distracting! turns out, yunhan was serving mass. i thought i got it wrong cause i wasn't wearing glasses. yeah, we were supposed to be discussing pre-u sem stuff online. hahaa. mang didn't come! ): oh well. that was the wasted long weekend. i keep missing math tuition. this sucks. i've overslept like 3, 4? times? aiyee, not good. i should get down to work now. hockey match; why'd it have to rain? but met many ij girls. i never realised i'd miss some of them so much. makes you appreciate the small things in life that you always thought were normal. starting to really hate work. i just don't feel like doing anything. i mean, comeon! it's the weekend! even adults seem to have more time. seriously, i get up earlier and reach home the same time as my dad. okay, the reach home part is only on some days, but still! i hate public transport. stupid people who don't know how to use their God-given legs! they can go screw themselves seriously. i can't believe they had the audacity to give me that look! like it was my fault? i was holding 4 times the amount of stuff they were and struggling to keep balance. urgh, it's just so embarrassing to be singaporean when you're taking the bus. yes, i am still fuming at the stupid people on bus 165 who refused to move to the centre of the bus but stared at me like it was my responsibility to squash myself between them and the seats to get there. i hate public transport. posted on Friday, April 09, 2010i'm going to try to talk about it.because it happened and i'm tired of pretending it's okay or hiding it or ignoring the implications. and i thank megan for giving me the encouragement to do this. it's been a year and almost 4 months. all this while in my head, my answer to the question "what happened?" was always "life happened." but no, it was death. death that came and took away the past year, death that made my world spin so hard and so fast i didn't know it was spinning till the end of it came and knocked me out cold and hard on what now is ground but was once the opposite. i'm not proud of these battle scars; just looking at them hurts. but i need to come clean with it; i'm broken. deep down, a lot more than i'll ever want to show. and that's why i keep pushing you away because i can't let you see the mess. i'm not normal. i'm not always okay. i not who i used to be. i'm not anyone right now. posted onlife feels so screwed up.it passes me by and i don't even bother to catch it. i was wrong about living. |
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