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Where Did You Come From LadyElizabeth Tan♥ |
posted on Saturday, December 20, 2008this is my 300th post.strange. i'm happy. i really am. i mean, what else could i ask for? God's given her the relief from all her pain and suffering isn't that exactly what i asked for? i couldn't have possibly expected her to hold on to that. when God calls, i guess, you just have to go there's no denying that. but it's strange. to exist in a world where your loved one no longer lingers the only tangible part of her that remains is nothing but her past being the physical part that we know will not always remain. but there's always something much much deeper, more than fundamental affection and love. it's not just a mere memory; neither is it just a thought it's something burried in the deepest recesses of your probably-very-broken heart; it cannot be taken away from you it will not wither and crumble to bits it is not like the words etched onto stone that will weather away you must know it by now. yet you don't know how this is "the root of the root and the bud of the bud and the sky of the sky of a tree called life it is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart." it's almost as though a part of them still continues to live in you, pulsating through your veins. but no, it is not blood i speak of. neither is it anything you can hold for that matter. it is not their soul, for that rejoices in heaven with our Lord. it is because they love, and so do we. it is why we just know that we have to keep going keep smiling, keep singing, keep hoping, keep loving, keep fighting, keep breathing for TWO. but yes, it is hard and sometimes i feel like screaming. in fact, i am. in my mind not going mad. just, moving on. i think it's why i nearly cried when i read "new moon", the part when edward leaves bella. i feel that pain, when you search and search but realise there's nothing to find that will ease the pain. i just want to ignore it. because it hurts too much, it's just too hard. |
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