special post.
posted on Sunday, October 28, 2007
to jaime, la and arielle. i've been staring at this for the past few hours. can't think of what to write. everything sounds so cliched. i want this to be truly special. cause this was my clique for sec 1 & 2. they're probably the most influential people on my life. cause they were the ones who helped me pull through so many things- the loss of loved ones, the pressure, the fear, the torment, the weariness. they gave me the comfort that no one else could, they supported me despite the consequence, despite the outcome. they're the ones who know me. inside out and outside in. they know my deepest darkest secrets, fears and they know practically everything about me. how do you say goodbye to people like that? how do you, knowingly and willingly, let go? how do you know it's going to be alright without them? how do you know that in 2-5 years time, we'll still be tlking to each other, we'll still be with each other? how do you live without these people?
arielle thanks you for:
porcupines united, cheerleading, secrets, gossip, shopping, neoprints, trinklet making, those times i cried, the understanding and comfort you gave me. those words of encouragement. putting up with the nonsense. and all those little conversations that we had, about lost of crap. they matter. they really do. cause those are the moments i treasure. those are the times we spend together and that i really enjoyed. keep being pretty okay? and keep in touch. promise.
clara you were there for:
everything. every single little time i was about to break down. you were there. during OM, you took upon yourself to do the bulk of the project. during talentime, and cac. when you got so stressed. sorry baby, i really had my head in the clouds. when i was too idealistic i guess you really brought me back down. the comfort you gave me can't and will never be replaced. you rock my socks!
jaime you'll be in my heart
and this is the hardest of all. because i started wirting this with the mentality that i would be able to let you go and be happy for you. i am happy for you. but i can't let go. cause i don't know what i'm going to do without you. and it's not fair. cause ----- will get to spend more time with you than we do! but it's also not fair cause we're all gonna miss you like crazy. and IJ's gonna lose one hell of a funny girl to Vj. but as they say, you can take the girl out of the convent, but you can't take the convent out of the girl. make sure everyone in vj know that it's true. so hold your head up high and walk on, through the thunder, through the rain, go forth and embrace this opportunity that you've been wanting. but remember that i'll always be here. right here, cheering you on. and i really wanted to say these things to you on the last day of school. but i couldn't find my voice. only my tears. to tell the truth, those tears meant more than: i'm gonna miss you and i don't want you to go. they meant: i'm sorry, forgive me for all the times i've wronged you, for all the times i caused you trouble and distress. i want you to know how much you mean to me and that i'll never ever forget you, that i'll always love you. thanks you for being the greates friend on earth, letting me share my troubles and problems with you, sharing your problems and troubles with me. thankyou thankyou thankyou. remember to call once a week and tell me about vj!
how i'll cherish those times these people were there for me
like for that time from oct to nov06 when i was sturggling to let go
like during the sec 2 retreat when i broke down and you 3 came running into the toilet after me and gave that big hug. i can't forget that.
during that time i fell terribly ill and i couldn't talk cause my throat was inflammed and i was too weak. you people constantly sms-ed me and kept me updated.
and when i fell apart in drama during the sharing thing. don't know why the hell i always get so emotional.
during the heart aching back lash of things
wonders of science!
and OM!
and drama
jaime: a is for apple, apple is for me
b is for banana, banana starts with b
c is for caroline, minus a, r, e
oh, apple apple is for me!
yeap, i'll remember that. i sure will.
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