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Where Did You Come From LadyElizabeth Tan♥ |
posted on Thursday, April 19, 2007ahhh. my life is sucky.let's face it. everyone's life is screwed. we just try to act cool about it. have you ever been so sure of something and suddeny one day, you just wake up doubting everything? because of one stupid person? have you ever sat in church before and realised so many things? don't love God because you were told to. love him because you really do. this class outing thing is out of hand. SAs are here. and they suck. i'm tired. just so tired. not just physically. emotionally as well. every morning i wake up and don't see why i have to. every day i look out the window and feel like i should be doing something else. that i should be walking down some other path. i shouldn't be here. why do i keep accepting other people's crap. why do i constantly remind myself to try and work hard? it's all bloody screwed. everyone wants to control my life. your screwing it up. big time. i'm just so tired. just so exhausted. no one understands when i say those lines. and that hurts. so i'm going to tell you what i meant. what i really wanted to say was: i feel like killing myself. i'm tired of living. i'm tired of trying does that make you happy now? does that make feel relieved now? that you have one less burden to give a damn about? i was born out of a selfish desire. nothing more. i hate this. i hate you. this was written for that one person. who just can't see these tears so one day, when she reads this, maybe it'll be after some like... accident that i died in or perhaps i killed myself or ran away... yeah... something like that. i hope she knows i'm talking about her. i hope she feels the pain. because this is what you called me: stupid brainless useless child. that really hurt. just so you know. i can't believe i cry myself to sleep almost every night because of you. and i can't see why i gave so much of a damn. i really hate you too. i hope you cry. because what you did to me was just as bad. in fact, worse. sometimes kids just wanna hurt someone as much as they hurt. yes. that's true. and that's why i'm doing this to you. |
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