Where Did You Come From Lady
Elizabeth Tan♥
quiz thing. fran's idea.
posted on Saturday, March 31, 2007
haii. running today...wish me all the best.SIX last
6. last cigarette: i don't smoke. so none.
5. last beverage: milo
4. last text message: jaime. i think. or was it arielle.
3. last bubble bath: erm...a few months ago.
2. last time you cried: last night.
1. last time you hugged someone: last night.
SEVEN have you's:
7. have you ever dated someone twice: eh?
6. do you believe in love at first sight?: erm..not really?
5. missing? heh. what's that supposed to mean.
4. have you ever fallen in love: yes. with my pillow? haha.
3. have you ever lost someone: yes. haven't we all?
2. have you ever been depressed? yes.
1. have you ever had a heartbreak?: from what? death? or bgr?
SIX things you did in the past three days:
6. went to school? yes.
5. went to work?: erm...
4.coloured?: with a pencil?
3. got drunk?: drink yes. drunk no.
2. slept.: duh.
1. hurt yourself?: yes. i fell and my ankle hurts even more now.
this year:
made a new friend? yes
laughed till you cried: yes.
went out behind your parent's back: erm...sort of.
met someone who changed your life: yes.
gotten close to someone: sort of.
what do you think of:
1 love: it can tear you up inside but heal you again.
2 gay marriage: erm.. don't know.
3 lowering the drinking age: of course i would support that but would it make a difference? because teens now a days openly drink underaged.
about you:
4. 4str8, gay, bi? les, passive: straight. definitely, haha.
5. who is the best hugger that you know: erm... dont know.
6. do believe in love at first sight?: not really
7. is there something you want to tell someone?: yes. tonnes of things. but i can't say it.
8. what kinda shirt are you wearing?: erm...a blue one? i just woke up...what do expect.
9. how many kids do you want to have: 2 or 3. no more than 3. or i will die.
10. do you have a good relationship with your parents?: no.
11. do you want to change your name? no.
12. what did you do for your last birthday?: it sucked. because my parents forgot.
13. what time did you wake up today?: 9. i have to run.
14. what were you doing at midnight?: saying the rosary
15. name something you cannot wait to do?: sleep.
16. last time you saw your father: yesterday night.
17. what is one thing you wish you could change about your life?: stop being so emo and lose weight.
18. which hand do you like better?: don't know.
19. what are you listening to right now?: "zhi dui ni you gan jue" and the stupid thumping from the construction next door.
21. have you ever atlked about someone behind their back?: yes. i'm not proud of it.
23. who's getting on your nevers right now?: the construction workers talking damn loud.
24. most visited webpage?: my blog?
25. coke or pepsi?:coke.
26. do you have a crush?: lol.
27. have you kissed or been kissed by anyone in the past week?: my mom?
29. do you think ther's some models/people out there that should gain a couple of pounds?: yeap.
30. do you enjoy your friendship with your friends?: yes!
people to do this:
everyone in twooneohseven who hasn't done it. jia an and cheryl! and yes, carina.
posted on Friday, March 30, 2007
i ate a lot today...for luch i ate...
a burger, a donut and some biscuits!
a lot right?
because i didn't eat breakfast,
ran around a gazillion times looking for people
and rushed a lot today...
so yeah...
used up a lot of energy...
i think i shall change my blogskin soon...
it's getting old...
ahh...
don't wanna run tmr!
i fell.
twice...
in two days...
my left leg still hurts at certain angles...
so i took out my shoes during lessons today...
:D
what?! don't gimme that look...
then i fell after school and my right ankle is sore...
hope it's ok for tmr!
watching some kang xi lai le thing on youtube.
haha...
so funny...
tang yu zhe tried to act shuai while drinking water...
and he choked...
like...diao?
haha. i need to get down to work...
yes. work...
but i'm tired![whines like a little kid]
hmp![quote from michelle]
michelle, thank you for letting me complain to you yesterday!
i was just so frustrated i couldn't take it.
haha, i just remembered...
yesterday, this girl said: "hello laura!" to me
i looked up at her and stared blankly...
then she said: "oops! sorry!"
and i look down and laugh...
she obviously doesn't know laura's my sister...
and i don't know how in the world she could mistake me for her!
we look so different!
ms chua and mrs mah think we look alike
but ms teo says we don't!
haha. how contradicting.
thank you lala.
for staying back all the way with me.
and even leaving later than me.
you rock.
posted on
gaahh.i am a pig.
self-proclaimed.
haha. today was funny,
and tiring.
came to school early because of jie.
then we were rushing about to do up the board because of the international friendship day...
just before the bell rang, mrs tan came
scolded us because it was supposed to be done long time ago.
then she wanted to collect the charities week envelopes...
which many people didn't bring...
so we were rushing to collect it and ran down...
then hillary asked mrs yousuff for some time to do up the board...
she gave us 15 mins...
but we ended up using 50 minutes...
so we barely attended history...
ooh!
and guess what?
rear admiral lui came visiting to our school!
so all the teachers were busy!
and we had free periods!
yeah!
we were doing stupid stuff!
ap and me did science.
yes, i bullied her into clearing up...
because i'm hopeless at that.
almost fell asleep during maths...
it was so warm...
no ventilation...
ms mazlind let us stand outside for a while...
it was ten times cooler!
stayed back to do om...
i am going to go blind soon...
ahh...
i doubt we can finishe in time....
oh wells...
pig!
posted on Monday, March 26, 2007
oh gosh.i am becoming such a pig.
worst that before..
someone stop me...
i have compulsive eating disorder.
i stuff myself.
oh gosh.
what is wrong with me?
why is everyone saying i'm so darn skinny when it's not true?
why do i feel this irksome layer of fat on me.
i am being paranoid?
i don't know.
i really don't
right now i'm just feeling weird...
head's sort of spinning...
just now i felt ...
not sick-weird
not feel-like-throwing-up weird...
just weird.
like an overdose of something...
cereal?
jaime thinks it's wine...
but i didn't drink today!
i only took a sip yesterday...
i am tired.
my bum of a sister.
asks the maid to wake her up,
leaves the blooming light on,
leaves her bloody alarm ringing
and refuses to move her ass out of bed.
how nice.
resulting in me waking up.
not her.
when she's the one who has to get her ass in school
plus she was late.
not my problem...
ooh well,
i am a pig.
self-proclaimed...
i need to do my tuition homework!
oh yeah...
elearning is still sucky...
but not as sucky as last year...
posted on Friday, March 23, 2007
i've been seeing a lot of suicide-associated stuff recently.here's one that really made sense.
resume
razors pain you;
rivers are damp;
acids stain you;
and drugs cause cramp
guns aren't lawful;
nooses give;
gas smells awful;
you might as well live.
-dorothy parker
posted on
thank you Lord.for the many angels you have sent me this week. i don't know what i'd do without them. thank you for giving me the comfort i needed and for taming my wildest fears. for the support and love i felt this week from my darling friends, and for helping me realise how nice some people are, they're just scared to show it.
monday was retreat. tuesday was supposed to be our science presentation but jaime left early so we didn't do it. wednesday we were supposed to present cme, sci and english. only presented science. had lots of fun going mad during drama...thursday was sports day. iw as stuck doing stupid first aid duty. i was at station one. the most exciting station. where most of the races start and end. came home, bathed, ate, slept and woke up at 6. did drama...
now it's friday. i'm stuck at home for stupid e-learning. i wonder who's bright idea it was to force us to stay at home and deprive us of our chance to see our friends. sorry government people. if you read this don't feel offended. i'm pms-ing. i think. but singapore is a democratic society and i have my right to say anything here. gahhh...math is so boring. and i'm so tired...even though my sleep has come back, i haven't really slept that well. tmr there's cathecism. we're all going to be doing stupid stuff. victoria has changed my name to seashell...
freakin science
posted on Sunday, March 18, 2007
ahhh.write up is driving my crazy!
i don't think i want to use the microwave oven anymore!
after taking so darn long to load it says there's an error?
like what the hell?
now everything is blooming fast.
oh wells.
gotta sleep.
pray my sister's blooming alarm doesn't ring.
and that i can sleep well tonight.
after that glass of wine...
:D
i have a new infatuation on tea!
suicidal me!
posted on Thursday, March 15, 2007
haha!yeah!
today went back to school for banner painting!
then did english and discussed some other projects!
english was uber fun!
we have to take a picture of the whole group,
then write a poem and present it!
so our picture was:
a suicidal girl[me] contemplating her death on a ledge while her friend[arielle] tries to calm her down. then there is this girl[clara!] watching while this other dodo[jaime] pretends she didn't see a thing and just walks off.
yeaps!
mrs mah! you have a suicidal english rep!
:D girl on the top floor standing is me!
then the other one is arielle
lala on the 2nd floor
and jaime on the ground
thanks denise!
for helping us take the picture!
it is wednesday!!!
posted on Wednesday, March 14, 2007
there's LL today.and hanakimi after that!
oh no, ja, cheryl, carina& debby are bound to go mad
and start calling me taitai.
I AM NOT TAITAI!
pffft.
i am tired!!!
ahahahaa
stupid construction.
the house opposite me wants to have a swimming pool.
oh damn.
haha.
i'd better go do my hw...
losta stuff going to the rest of this week.
posted on Tuesday, March 13, 2007
hey!my last post was my 163rd post!
that's the bus number!
haha.
by george, it's already mid march?
seems like eternity has just past
yet everyday seems to go by so quickly.
sometimes, you can't help but miss some people,
some stuff, some memories,
it took me so long to get over it.
and now i find myself thinking about it again.
amazing how one phrase can bring back such a sudden rush of memories
that gush can be so strong sometimes.
alright, ja will say my posts are depressing again so i'll stop.
i'm not upset over the fact that my group didn't get into talentime.
i'm upset over the fact that bloody hq didn't call or send me a blooming email!
out of courtesy, it's the least you could do!
even if both our cadets[one being me] did not turn up for NDP selections you fat pig!
we have VALID reasons!
hmp!
i'm being petty.
and yesterday, at 10.48pm
ma'am angeline sent me a blooming sms while i was happily watching tv.
saying fran & me are in the world RC day marching contigent.
my first reaction: eh?
reaction when i saw training: bloody hell!
reaction when i realised that there may be more trainings: what the hell? i want my sleep.
i have been insomnia.
that is my explaination for my grumpiness over the past few days.
do not comment.
i forbid you to.
raarrr!
my sister's stupid alarm rang blooming early this morning.
so i couldn't go back to sleep.
grumble...
hanakimi!
5th ast episode today!
ahh!
so soon?
:((
i don't think i can get back for the lost sleep during this holiday.
pray i can sleep well tonight.
I pray you'll be our eyes, and watch us where we go,
And help us to be wise, in times when we don't know
Let this be our prayer, as we go our way
Lead us to a place, guide us with your grace
To a place where we'll be safe...
results?
posted on Monday, March 12, 2007
ahhhhh.i've been carrying my phone around the house
for the whole day!
when are the silly hq people going to call?
supposed to havet he results today.
ahhh...
stupid hq.
always slow....
i being paranoid now.
just now someone called and hung up
stupid pig.
ahh...
it's already 5.54...
if they don't call by 7 i will cry.
because i need to watch hanakimi!
lol.
reading the comic online now...
it's almost the same!
yesh!
very nice to watch and read.
the only problem is my eyes hurt.
oh well...i will upload the talentime pics soon...
if i can be bothered...
but that probably means i won't be...
:D
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
posted on Sunday, March 11, 2007
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!i can't take it!!!
ahhh.!!!
i don't think we can get into finals for talentime anymore!!
stupid modern dance.
so tired!!
insomnia again.
no matter how tiredi am,
no matter how late i sleep,
i keep waking up early.
i don't know why i can't sleep.
so yesterday.
talentime auditions.
came to school,
practiced.
changed some dance moves again.
arielle came,
helped out,
then we went to get ready.
big mess.
we got there.
i found out i was leader!
wow. how come no one told me?
we were CM10!!
YEAH!
then we danced!
had a lot of fun dancing together.
but the judges said we had no co ordination.
and only lala was smiling.
plus her skirt was long.
and the rest of us were wearing short skirts.
ahhh! you piece of shit!
LONG?
NOT SMILING?
NO CO ORDINATION?
like you can bloody dance when you ahd so little time to prepare?
blind dingbats.
ahhhh!!
i wanna kill someone!!
they said they noticed there were many abrupt changed in the music
not sure if it was to show our strengths or weaknesses.
what the hell?
*sensored*
ahhhhh!
in the bus ma'am angeline was yelling.
so i startted yelling to.
when we reached school i was so fed up i yelled and yelled and threw my bag on the floor.
i swear, if the traditional dance people don't get in i will KILL those idiots.
the traditional dance people were damn good!
ours well,
we didn't really have co ordination. that part's true.
but you mean pig!
i don't get it.
the dance girls liked the mixing of songs,
so what's your problem?
ahhhh!
results come out tmr.
ahhh...
ahhhhhhhhhaaaahahaaaaaaaaaa.
when we got back to school
hillary played the piano for me.
she plays beautifully.
and i want to die.
ahhh....
dad's coming back from hong kong today.
wonder what he bought.
and how was the wedding.
Sometimes I get emotional
Sometimes I do some stupid things
Sometimes I say What I should just keep inside
Sometimes I'm sad'Bout everything
Sometimes I'm mad
And break some things
Sorry times ten
But you just got in the way
talentime!!
posted on Thursday, March 08, 2007
ahhh talentime is in 2 days!so doomed.
okay, maybe we didn't put in our best effort?
but what were you expecting?
look, we're in 2/1.
we have om, the star programme, and tonnes of projects!
plus i have AEP!
i stayed up to 3am yesterday to finish my AEP.
it came out like crap.
dead tired.
lala you'd better rest.
i should be doing my work.
haha. what work?
getting ready for talentime?
nah... later.
ahh. but i am pissed.
at a lot of people.
don't tell me that it's not good enough.
because i'm bloody tired.
because i'm drained.
i can't focus now.
just don't tell me it's not good enough.
because we try.
at least we try.
so gimme a break for one damn second..
i don't need 1000 people hounding me for 1000 different things.
just give me a break plur-leeeease.
i love hana kimi!
so funny!
my mom thinks i'm crazy.
but it keeps me happy,
that's all that matters now.
yeap, as long as i'm happy now.
posted on Sunday, March 04, 2007
oh my gosh!steph's party yesterday so rocked!
i haven't had so much fun in ages!
it was hillary's surprise party!
she was blur till we sang the birthday song!
i came super late because of church.
like..7+?
then we cut the cake and all,
hillary, daffy and AP left,
then lizzi, jaime, steph and me walked caroline out to the bus stop.
lizzi and jaime were making so much noise!
they kept doing silly things too!
it was hilarious!
lizzi jumped into the middle of the road and yelled :" ha!"
crazy right?
then they yelled hello ---[not named to protect their identity]
jaime was like:"i want to takea picture of the sign!"..."no space in memory.."
haha. jaime&lizzi were trying to march...backwards...
then they saluted to an advertisement about sanitary pads!
like...wth? haha.
then at the bus stop lizzi was screaming: " if all the rain drops were lemon drops..."
people must have thought we were mad!
then on the way back...
steph and me stopped walking to let jaime and lizzi walk on.
and they walked all the way down to the end of the road
without realising we weren't behind them!
we almost couldn't stop laughing!
then when i took of my jacket lizzi and jaime started cheering...
like diao!
then we reached steph's house
after waking up and annoying the dogs.
lizzi's idea to have a symphony.
couldn't stop laughing.
played taiti,
of course i lost!
then we played drinking game!
we could all walk in a straight line still.
went up and tried to go to the attic.
failed. so mission aborted.
then went to the study and told ghost stories!
lizzi got so scared she was hugging the torch light.
then we told super lame jokes!
and went online...
talked about all the stupid things we did when we were small.
then my dad called.
so i had to leave. :(
by then it was about...10.30+? so we walked lizzi home...
and up the lift to her door.
just to make sure she wasn't drunk and walked into the lift door or fell asleep in it.
then i got home.
oh wells. one long post on the party.
it was shoooo fun!
daffy brought her skirt-bag.
ahem.
yes jaime, caroline minus a-r-e!
haha!
posted on Saturday, March 03, 2007
ahh. i love you jaime!you're such a great friend.
you can tell when i'm down.
you don't even have to be within a 100m radius.
i can't thank you enough for comforting me.
the Lord has blessed me with such a great friend like you.
you gave me support and made me see things differently.
you understand the things i say.
and you spur me on.
to continue living.
because you make me feel like there's something left
something worth living for.
you give me strength.
thank you darling.
all these words aren't enough to express my thanks.
let your wildest dreams come true!
yes, caroline minus a-r-e. haha.
love you loads!
posted on Friday, March 02, 2007
all i can say is that i'm disappointed.in you and in me.
i thought you would understand damnit.
how daft can you be?
stupid rather.
isn't it obvious?
i can't concentrate.
i'm restless,
are you that blind?
i hate you now,
you know that?
i've hated you for a long time.
for goodness sake,
do a good job for once.
why should i cry my eyes out over trying to please you?
when all i get is more misery.
maybe i should stop giving in to you.
the more you give the more you get.
but the more you get, the more you want.
i hate the way you pretend to be ignorant.
because if i give a damn
then why can't you?
you have no idea what it's like now.
i feel like i've wasteed my whole life trying to please you
trying to be everything i can't.
why do i give so much of a damn for a piece of shit like you.
it's just so hard to ask.
cause i know you'll say no.
and that sucks.
cause it hurts.
real bad.
i don't know.
i just don't ok?
oh fine!
maybe you're not expecting me to know.
but i i just wanna give up.
because i can't be who you want me to be.
i can't keepp up with this.
"pretending to be happy" crap.
i feel short-changed.
pathetic.
that's what we all are.
i wanted to grow spiritually this year.
how the hell do i do that?
when everywhere i turn,
i see GOD doing horrible things to good people.
why? why damnit why?
can't anyone else understand?
why did GOD do that to mrs low,
why does he make us cry.
why can't he just tell me the answer straight away.
sorry dear Lord.
i just can't do this anymore.
i can't stand her.
why can't you let things go my way?
i know i shouldn't be selfish.
but i need support right now.
and thank God i get it from my friends at least.
i've made terrible mistakes GOD.
don't let this be another one of them.
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