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Where Did You Come From LadyElizabeth Tan♥ |
posted on Sunday, February 11, 2007how do you know when it's all too much?how do you know whne to draw the line? there's no clear boundary in anything. take euthanasia for exmaple, how do you know whether you should hang in there, wait it out, or just let go. there are just so many unanswered questions that i ask GOD. maybe i shouldn't. everything's just screwed up. i'm sorry Jesus. that i ever doubted you, and tested you. i'm sorry. but recently, it's just been hard to understand. some people tell me: "then don't believe in GOD." but i can't. because without you i can't stand up. i can't go on. you're the only thing i have left to cling onto. and i'm losing grip of everything. it's so hard now. maybe i am stressed. like everyone says. maybe i'm dillusional. with so many projects, red cross, aep, class comm, i thought i could handle it. maybe i was trying too hard to be like her. LORD , forgive me for this. how do i live without you? i have sinned Lord. i just don't know what to do. how do i believe? i look at the world and i see their screwed up lives. and i wonder. what i was, and what i am. sometimes i can't help but think i used to be much better than i am. when i didn't include you in my life, [exclusive of church] i was happy, carefree, ignorant. but when i really started to listen to you, i feel burdened by all this. being the one to sacrifice, to compromise, to tolerate. i'm just drained of everything. i'm running out of strength. why did you do those horrible things to those people. why did you hurt them so much? it's not fair. they didn't choose to. they listened to you, they preached about you, they obeyed you, they even read the bible everyday, prayed to you every night. they were the one who remained faithful to you, yet you did those things to them. how could you? i'm just so tired of this life. yes, you told me it wouldn't be easy but i chose this. please, don't let my prayers go in vain. and Jesus, i miss her so much. promise me she's alright and that she knows. and that others won't make the same mitake that i did. because feeling responsible for someone's death is devastating. the pain is excruciating. please, don't let it happen again. GOD, give us the serenity to accept the things we cannot change, courage to change the things we still can, wisdom to know the difference and strength to carry on. |
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