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Where Did You Come From LadyElizabeth Tan♥ |
posted on Thursday, December 21, 2006death is a heavy burden to carry. it makes you remember. remember the good times you had with that person, and the bad. it makes you recall what you did or didn't do. it just all comes flooding back. the last few minutes you spent with that person. the last few things you said to that person. one of the worst things it forces you to remember is: you couldn't do anything to stop it.have you ever looked at something, heard something, felt something or whatever it is you did and remembered a sort of heart wrenching feeling? like your heart really is being broken. people always use that term so lightly. like when they broke up or something. but they don't realise what it's like to really lose someone. when they do, that's when the pain really kicks in. and you feel as though you want to scream just so bad, your eyes just really want to cry but somehow you just know that if you do, it will make you seem weak. never in my life, did i feel this stupid. i can't take this. people talk about losing someone they loved so lightly. even when they haven't. they act so hurt and distraught. when they haven't friggin realised what it's really like. to miss someone so badly that you feel like pulling out all your hair. to feel responsible for someone's death. it's not fair! it's just so bloody unfair! christmas is here. people get sick of buying things which they don't know if the receiver will like or use. so they ask. yeah, sure, ask away what they want. but don't ask me. i really don't know if i can care anymore. i want something so bad that i have to cry over it for months. because i know i'll never get it. no one can make that wish come true. nothing you buy can ease that pain. nothing in this world. nothing. so you think you know what it's like to be heart broken? to feel like you heart is going to stop any second. to think you're about to stop breathing. and to want it back even more? and all you can do is act as though you've gotten over it. and give those fake smiles. yes, maybe eventually they'll turn into real ones. i can only hope now. that i'll get over it. that i'll be okay. |
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